Modern Love: Transgender, On-line and Inter-racial Part 1
by Ana P. Santos
People have a tendency to judge others by the relationships that they have or how their relationships began. In this series, Sex and Sensibilities.com takes a look at how relationships are impacted by a world that is becoming smaller and smaller as technology becomes more ubiquitous. The more modern and hi-tech we become as a society, the more evident it is that our relationships are hinged on old-fashioned values of love and respect.
A meal ticket.
A one way airline ticket out of the Philippines.
A ticket to a better life.
Whether one would like to admit it or not, it wasn’t long ago when an inter-racial relationship, one between a foreign man and a Filipina was synonymous to those words. It was perceived to be a utilitarian relationship of commerce rather than feelings, of transactional needs rather than intimate bonds.
But things are slowly changing.
Low-cost airfare and migration have broken geographical borders in many ways. Younger foreign men can now extend their stop-over from other neighboring countries to our shores. More Filipinas are traveling for business, leisure or education and are being exposed to different cultural backgrounds. The global melting pot has blurred the lines defining and thus, segregating one race from another.
Perhaps nothing has changed the landscape of the way we engage in relationships more than the Internet and social media. It is now possible to have a relationship with someone even before you meet in person. Distance, race and even time difference are just all minor nuisances instead of factors that would spell the end of a relationship.
But, as Alice and Joyce will tell you, much still has to be done about breaking down stereotypes and prejudices that besiege inter-racial relationships. These two women share intimate details about their inter-racial relationships, both of which were started and nurtured on-line. Precisely because of the stigma that surrounds on-line inter-racial relationships, both have requested to keep their identity secret. Now, their stories are still perceived to be unconventional and rare. But as technology advances, human relationships will move into the same direction and on-line relationships will just be another case of boy-meets-girl.
Alice, 25
Fashion Designer
Transexual Woman
Oliver and I met online. It is a more convenient form of meeting people for me since I can easily screen the sincere ones from the “chasers” or those who just want to have fun. It is also easier for me to tell the person about me being a transsexual woman or transwoman. It is also safer for me to tell them online because I don’t have to be afraid of a negative reaction that might potentially lead to a hate crime.
We were talking online for six months and then he flew to the Philippines to meet me. It wasn’t awkward meeting him face to face for the first time. It felt like he just went on a trip somewhere and came back to me.
At first, Oliver didn’t really know much about transgender issues; that’s why our relationship started with me giving him a Transgender101 orientation.
Oliver and I have been together 1 year and 9 month; 14 of those months were spent living together here. Culturally, he was able to adjust very well and sometimes even calls himself a “Gernoy” (German + Pinoy). He eats most of the Philippine dishes I serve him and is not too picky or spoiled. Oliver also got to know my family, which is a huge step for me especially since my family was initially not open to the fact that I am a transwoman. In time, they were able to accept and treat Oliver as part of the family.
Being in a relationship with a foreigner really takes a while to get used to. First of all, Oliver’s mother tongue is not English. During the first few months, we had some difficulty communicating. He learned to master English and I also studied basic German.
But more than that, other issues that we have to deal with as an inter-racial couple have to do with stereotypes and prejudice a relationship between a foreign guy and a transwoman here in the Philippines.
Since my gender identity, appearance and behavior is female and Oliver sees me as a woman, we consider our relationship as a heterosexual one. Most of the time, people think since I was assigned male at birth and Oliver is male, we are in a gay relationship. This is frustrating for Oliver because he was never attracted to men. Although we have no problems with people in gay relationships, we don’t want our relationship to be labeled as such.
Whenever we go out in public, we get stares from people. We first get noticed because he is a foreigner with a Filipina. Then, they realize that I am a transwoman and start talking about us and staring. The dynamics of the two really make us stick out like a sore thumb in public. We don’t need that unwanted attention. We want the quiet life that most people take for granted.
Sometimes I don’t go near him or hold his hand in public to avoid the stares and the negative attention. I also talk to him in German so that people will have the impression that I come from Europe and hopefully lessen the severity of their judgment.
It’s hard for Oliver to see how people treat me. It also brings out the worst in me because it makes me more insecure about myself and very paranoid about what people would say about us.
Some of them think that I am a sex worker and Oliver is my client or I am just using Oliver as my meal ticket. Many times in bars, both men and women would go up to Oliver and tell him that I am a transwoman or other assorted names like “ladyboy”. He would silence them by telling them that I am his wife and show them our matching rings.
It is very demeaning for me. I am well-educated, I graduated cum laude from a private school and yet, even street beggars belittle me because I am a transwoman.
It has been not an easy journey for us, especially for Oliver. Seeing my struggles has made us decide to live somewhere out of the Philippines. We want to go to a place where society would not discriminate or judge people because of the choices they make. I believe that the Philippine society is one of the reasons why most transwomen choose to live in another country–so we can live a quiet—or what we call a “stealth”– life. I wouldn’t mind living in the Philippines if only the discerning people showed some respect and compassion towards transwomen.
It also made me realize that the Philippines has a lot of growing up to do when it comes to acceptance.
Currently, we are in the process of applying for a fiancée visa so that I would be able to go to Germany with Oliver. I do love my country, but it is better for me to leave so that I can live my life in a nurturing and dignified environment, where I, and the choices that I’ve made, are respected.
Author’s Note: Last week, Donald Trump overruled the disqualification of transsexual woman, Jenna Talackova. A statement released by Mr. Trump’s office read:
“The Miss Universe Organization will allow Jenna Talackova to compete in the 2012 Miss Universe Canada pageant provided she meets the legal gender recognition requirements of Canada.” This was considered a small triumph for the global LGBT community in their continued fight against discrimination. Here in the Philippines, the decision was met with skepticism and disappointment. It is hoped that this story was help others understand some of the issues that transwomen continue to face.
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